Oh Me Of Little Faith

Positively No Negativity Challenge

Day 70 of 84

I have done all I can to settle Aaron for the rest of the year at university. He is ensconced there and my job is done for now. This is the time for me to let his year unfurl as it will, and just get on with my own life, as he will get on with his. The time for worry is over and now it’s time to accept what will be. After all, worry is just another word for fear.

Fear is debilitating, it often causes depression, a fatalistic attitude and negativity. Can you really be positive when you are consumed with fear?

 So I had to ask myself, “What was I afraid of?”

I guess I was afraid of what would happen to my son if he couldn’t study and accomplish his life’s work. I was afraid of the financial repercussions of paying for a university year that will not be completed. I was afraid he would become bored and depressed. I’m sure I worried more than he did.

Oh me of little faith!

Well maybe the best will come out of this extra time he has to think about his life. And hopefully the insurance claim will take care of the added financial costs.

I was thinking about the life of George Frederick Handel, my favourite classical composer. George seemed to have good reasons to fear. He had lost his health, his right side was paralyzed, his money was gone and his creditors threatened to imprison him. Handel was so discouraged by his problems that he almost despaired, but his faith prevailed. In his weakest hour he composed his greatest work “The “Hallelujah Chorus,” which is part of his heralded “Messiah.” I could learn a lesson from him.

 I cannot control what will happen next, but I am optimistic that it will be good, whatever it is. A peace has settled upon me, and with it a more positive attitude. When you accept what you cannot change there is a freedom to get on with life with a mind uncluttered by negative thoughts. I have faith that things will work out for the best.

Faith makes the uplook good, the outlook bright, the inlook favorable and the future glorious.” V. Raymond Edmond


How about you, dear Reader? Are you worrying about something that you really have no control over? Have you done all you can about your situation or your loved one’s situation? Maybe it’s time to get on with your life and have faith that things will work out as they should.

                                                                                                                                                 Today I am thankful:

1. For a good night’s sleep (finally)

2. For my children

3. For a crackling fire last evening

4. For faith and an optimistic outlook

5. For blueberries and strawberries in my shake

4 thoughts on “Oh Me Of Little Faith

  1. Thanks Christine. That was a nice post to read – and a reminder that we live our lives in moments divided up into “lifetimes”. For example, my time in college was a “lifetime”, when my wife and I bought our home and our children were first born – it was another “lifetime” ago. When my sister had gotten divorced and spent the following year and half dating until she found Mr. Right – that was “lifetime” ago for her.

    I find it comforting to divide times in our life like this – as it reiterates the saying that “This too shall pass” when times are tough. At the same instance, this kind of thinking teaches us to treasure the moments that are good because time is fleeting. Thankfully, the LESSONS of it all exceed the limit of any lifetime and carry us through the entire journey of our being. This is why good or bad, experience makes us better and richer in our years.


  2. This past August, my son was diagnosed with Leukemia. It’s a worry that I have no control over – other than the fact that he’s getting the best medical attention possible.

    My father had an expression that stuck with me after my 4 year old’s diagnosis. He said “It’s as if we’re paper tigers”. I had never heard the saying before but it means that we’re helpless against the forces of the universe despite our accessibility to medicine, financial backing and sheer physical strength. That helpless feeling inspires fear of the uncontrollable. And, the desire for certainty only exacerbates this fear.

    Anyway, I like what you had to say here. Especially the beginning where you mention “This is the time for me to let his year unfurl as it will” – because really, it will no matter what. My choice is deciding how much fear to let into my mind during this period and how much faith to counterbalance it. Either way, I have to feel good about life – because no matter which way it all comes out, we are all blessed to be apart of it. Thanks for your post.


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