Dealing with SAD

Positively No Negativity Challenge

Day 64 of 84

“ Here you are doing a no negativity challenge and you’re being as negative as before you started. And you’re intolerant as well.”

That’s what Dave said to me on the weekend. It stung, it hurt; it was a slap in the face, but it was true. I could feel myself getting tense over the past few days and was powerless to do much about it. Some days just don’t progress in a good way and I end up hating everyone, everything and am generally grumpy. When I lived in Quebec, on those days I would tell people, “ Je ne suis pas un cadeau aujourd ‘hui.” In other words, if you don’t want to get hit by a bomb of negativity, just stay away.

 So I retreated to my office and tried to sort out what was on my mind. Initially the negative thoughts just kept on coming, to the point that I didn’t even like being with myself. As I thought about it, I realized that there was nothing specific that was bothering me; it was a general grumpiness, sense of foreboding, sadness.

I remembered feeling a bit like that last January. I thought it must have been the letdown after Christmas, or maybe the weight I gained over the holidays. When I really thought about it, most January months have found me with the same malaise.

Ah, the dreaded SAD, or seasonal affective disorder.

Past experience has taught me that if I don’t get proactive, this SAD will just spiral out of control. Although the winter has just barely started, so far it has been brutal, with five major storms already, and it’s only January 5th.

The experts are not sure what causes SAD, or this sadness at the same time each year, but they all agree that it may be caused by a lack of sunlight. The usual symptoms are what I have described above, but also less interest in regular activities and a craving for carbohydrates, such as bread and pasta.

The solution is usually light therapy, and I would add to that a healthy diet, some form of exercise, and getting outside every day, no matter the weather. That usually helps to keep the negativity at bay and to be more positive.

That’s my plan anyway.


Today I am grateful:

1. For a husband who can tolerate my moods

2. For a reprieve from the cold temps

3. For a little outing with Aaron yesterday

4. For a lavender bath and a good night’s sleep

5. For food in the fridge and gas in the car

10 thoughts on “Dealing with SAD

  1. Wow I can relate to this. I just wrote about this very thing in my post today & how sometimes you just need to ask for help because it IS a real struggle. Every winter I go through this & it is terrible. I feel for you but don’t be afraid to ask for help & just let people who love you know that you’re having hard time. Love, hugs & sunshine 😉


  2. Hi Chris! Thanks for wearing your heart on your sleeve, and saying things some of us only think.
    I have a solution for my SAD now, and he is coming over in a few hours : )…nothing changes your mood like a cuddly smiling grandbaby. And I love your photo,so serene. B


  3. Susanne Winters

    Love that you’re so real Christine. I’m sure most of us feel that way – you’re certainly not the only one. Sometimes I just keep to myself, because I don’t want to subject my crankiness on anyone else!!!

    At least you’re trying! And like I said, I love that you’re real.


  4. Hi Christine, I used to suffer seasonal depression. A few years ago I heard a cardiologist on the radio give the latest remedy 5ooo UI Vitamin D + Omega 3. I purchased it by Purity Products by phone1-800-281-7781 . It helped me, also good for moods,hair, skin & nails
    plus muscle and bone health. Love, Carole


  5. I kind of thought this whole 90 day thing was an experiment, so I’m not putting too much faith on just a couple of rough days worth of data. You don’t make Mujaddarah with just lentils do you? If there were no negative, then there couldn’t be any positive.

    So, enjoy the dump, and remember why you wanted to get the hell out of there in the first place.


    • Well, it is an experiment, but it’s also a way to better myself…that being said, you’re right; a couple of rough days are a blip. I have to make sure they don’t become a couple of rough weeks. Now I’m thinking of making Mujaddarah- thanks for the reminder!


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