Positivity No Negativity Challenge
Day 38 of 84
As the month of December marches on, I start to feel the tension building. It is getting more and more difficult to push out the negativity and to be positive. I have made my lists of things to do, gifts to buy and menus to plan. After all, my children are coming home for Christmas and I should be happy. I want to make a memorable family time for them, especially my daughter-in-law who has never experienced a traditional Canadian Christmas. I’ve bought her a Christmas stocking in anticipation of filling it with some little love gifts. There is prepared food at the ready in the freezer. The house is decorated. So what’s wrong with me? The holy music is playing.
Why am I not happy, merry and bright? Isn’t Jesus the reason for the season anyway?
But amidst all the cheery greetings, planning and parties, real life has crept in, and frankly, I am not feeling that merry, happy and peaceful at all.
When the cashier at Superstore wishes me Merry Christmas, I’m thinking of my son who will be coming home in the next few days with his concussion, and I worry about his health, his deferred exams and the success of his university year. I hope he will recover soon and be able to get back to his studies.
And when people send wishes with Happy Holidays written on them, I think of my old car, still sitting on a car lot waiting to be sold, and the bills waiting to be paid with the money from the non-existent sale. I hope the person who is supposed to look at it this afternoon will buy it.
Someone wished me Peace at Christmas and all I could think about is my precious mother, in a hospital bed in Newfoundland, waiting for test results that could devastate the family. I think of my father who is getting tired and discouraged with her condition and I hope for a positive result. I hope that Mom will soon be feeling better.
I think that what I am missing right now is that Hope. But what exactly is it? Wikipedia tells me that it is the state, which promotes the desire of positive outcomes related to events and circumstances in one’s life or in the world at large. Hmm…I do have a desire for a positive outcome in all these situations.
The Bible says that “…faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen.” Hebrews 11:1
I can’t really see the outcomes right now, but I can believe that God will work things out according to His plan.
And Jerome Groopman, in The Anatomy of Hope, tells me that Hope gives us the courage to confront our circumstances and the capacity to surmount them.
So if I have faith, and hope that all these situations will resolve themselves one way or another, it will give me the courage to march right through them.
This is powerful stuff here. By having Hope, my negative gloom and doom attitude can change to a more joyful and positive one.
Today I choose Hope.
1. My sister who left her family for a couple of weeks to be with Mom
2. A visit with my cousin yesterday
3. The doctors and a certain nurse at the hospital
4. Finding the book I was looking for