Know Thyself


Positively No Negativity Challenge

Day 34 of 84

It’s been a very busy weekend. We had a dinner party Saturday evening with lots of good wine, delicious food, and stimulating conversation. As usual, we ate too much and stayed up a little later than usual.

Sunday morning found me dragging myself out of bed to go to church.  After church I stayed to help fill cookie tins for university students in our area who are studying for exams. We filled 150 of them with every sort of cookie, some candy and hot chocolate. It was gratifying to be a part of the church community and do this thing that would make some students feel loved and cared for. The boxes were beautiful!

I am one of those people who need some time alone to recoup after any social encounter. Being that I am an introvert, I love being around people and having a good time, but it quite drains me. My energy and creativity come from solitude, which I crave. I know the extroverts among us don’t really understand that phenomenon, but there it is. When I don’t get this time I can be very negative and irritable.

So when I got home, I really needed some downtime, just to finish up a couple of Christmas gifts that have to go out in the mail this week and to unwind, just a little before moving on to something else.

The plans we had to do all the Christmas decorating by December 1st got started but not finished. I had been determined that everything would be done by last evening and Dave and I would be sitting in the living room, Christmas lights aglow and soft, holy music playing while sipping on a glass of wine.

Idyllic, don’t you think?

The reality is that the tree is up but with no decorations as yet; there is a wreath on the door and the mantle is done up with garland and holly, and there is a huge mess that needs tidying up. I guess Dave and I are not as young as we used to be.

We ran out of steam.

We had the best of intentions but a phone call from some old friends who were in the area for the afternoon beckoned us to a pub not too far away. My first instinct was to say we couldn’t go because we had all this decorating to finish and it had to be done by evening. I’m not sure exactly why it had to be done by the evening of December 1st. Where did this pressure and perfectionism come from?

Me.

I decided that for once in my life I would be spontaneous and just go to meet them. The decorating would just have to wait. We had a great afternoon, filled with good conversation and lots of laughs thrown in. I was glad we went. I have to say that doing this ‘No Negativity’ challenge is what made me decide to just be spontaneous and go. I decided that time with friends was more important than meeting my self-imposed deadline.

By the time we got home again, we halfheartedly attacked the task at hand. Boxes of Christmas things were all over the place, but we were both too tired to finish. It would just have to wait until tomorrow.

And I feel positively fine with that.

candle

Today I am grateful for:

1. A church sermon that made me think about peace and hope

2. Time with good friends

3. Morning coffee, good and strong

4. A cute text from my son

4. A reassuring chat with my sis-in-law

5. Community

 

 

4 thoughts on “Know Thyself

  1. Good for you Christine! You know yourself and this time you went against yourself but you did not fall apart. You enjoyed yourself anyway!

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  2. Hi, love reading about you with my morning coffee! Keep up the good work and take time for yourself, just to relax and do nothing…Have a nice Monday Christine xxx

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