Positively No Negativity Challenge
Day 29 of 84
The Positively No Negativity Challenge is now one third done. How am I doing? Well, I have managed to ‘put myself out there’ as I said I would, and in so doing I’ve become a much more positive person. I am not where I want to be yet, but I’m seeing progress.
I smile more.
I’m not quite as fatalistic as I was a month ago.
I’m finding solutions for dealing with certain problems rather than whining about them.
I am more able to put issues in their proper perspective and worry less about them.
I like myself more.
Well that’s a good start. All that being said, and as I’m being so positive this morning, last evening was another story. I’m still trying to figure that one out.
Sometimes having a light and positive attitude can be shattered by just a little thing and that can turn into an avalanche. See, yesterday I started fretting about my old car that is still not sold and all the negative thoughts came in: I’ll have to store it for the winter, it’s a rotten car and no one will buy it, I’ll have to haul it away to the junkyard, and so on.
That brought me on to worry about my son’s concussion and that he will never heal, he’ll scrap his school year and why can’t I make it better for him.
As if that wasn’t bad enough I started thinking about Christmas and all the things I have to do in the next couple of weeks: I don’t have time, I don’t have ideas for gifts, I don’t have enough money to buy them, I’ll gain ten pounds from all the baking and I’m not up to being Supermom this year.
So, armed with all that negativity, I started picking at the only other person around: my poor husband. He did manage to talk me down, but not before I whined loudly and clearly.
So this morning I am trying to put all these things in perspective. What happened to that perky, positive person I was just two days ago? Well she’s still here but now she has to start goal setting for the next couple of weeks and making lists of things she can accomplish day by day. She needs to go visit her son and make sure he’s ok, but most importantly, she needs to look at her blessings and to thank God for everything in her life, both the good and the not-so-good.
So here we go…
Today I am thankful
1. That my son only has a concussion. It could have been so much worse.
2. That I don’t need to sell my car to put food on the table.
3. That my kids are coming home for Christmas (and I will be Supermom)
4. That my husband loves me even when I am not lovable.
5. That God loves me anyway.