A Rolling Ball of Worry

The Positively No Negativity Challenge

Day 3

It was a perfect day for a perfect day!

Yesterday started out with heavy frost on the pumpkins and lavender in my front yard, and then moved on to a stunningly beautiful autumn day.

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So how did I manage to stew it all up? Stuff happens, I guess.

Yesterday was a tough day for me. Worry about someone close to me took up a lot of my energy. I tried hard to be positive but the ‘worst case scenario’ kept coming to mind.

That’s what negative thoughts do; they drain your energy and keep you from being in the present moment. It was a beautiful day but did I enjoy it? The more I gave in to my negative thoughts, the stronger they became. Picture a rolling ball and as it goes it gets bigger and bigger. Mine became a rolling ball of worry, concern and fear.

And then I brought those demons to a course at my church in the evening. Well, that did change my focus a little. Talk about God’s love (no matter what, no matter who) and some prayer at the end made me realize that I am not alone with my concerns.

I have God.

I positively have God, who loves not only me but also the people I love. It wasn’t a revelation but it was quite a realization.

In the words of Mary C. Crowley, “Every evening I turn my worries over to God. He’s going to be up all night anyway.”

Nice thought ‘eh?

5 things that made me happy and grateful today:

1. A visit from a friend for tea

2. A great pair of pants I found at Frenchy’s

3. Two phone calls that helped me put things in perspective

4. An evening course that helped

5. Coming home to a clear sky night with every constellation visible

And then I went to bed on a more positive note…

Here’s to a great day 4!

It’s The Ratio That Counts!

The Positively No Negativity Challenge

Day 2

SMILE!

Don’t you find that when you smile more, you are less apt to be negative? I do. I have been in a negative mode for so long, however, that I have to keep reminding myself to smile.

As I start this challenge, I find that there is a lot of negative self talk going on in my head. I found myself working hard yesterday to ‘change the cassette’ between my two ears. Hopefully, in time, positive talk will replace the negative.

Did you know that negative thoughts are more powerful than positive thoughts? We need to saturate ourselves with positive thoughts in the same way we need more HDL, the good cholesterol, than LDL. It’s the ratio of positive to negative that counts.

Last week Dave and I were in Newfoundland and it rained every day. Every day. It kind of gets you down after awhile. But yesterday here in the Annapolis Valley, it was a stunningly beautiful and sunny autumn day. It was very easy to be positive, and it made up for the week before.

So I decided to make a list of what I am grateful for each day, or what made me  happy. Here goes…

Five things that made me happy today:

1. Jeans that fit

2. An almost empty waiting room at the Dr’s office

3. A day to myself

4. The fact that I did my exercise program

5. Test driving the vehicle that I just might buy  car

Here’s a little something I read yesterday and it did indeed make me smile:

Live your life

Take chances

Be crazy

Don’t wait

Because right now

Is the oldest

You’ve ever been

And the youngest

You’ll be

Ever again!

How did you make out yesterday? Let me know!

Positively No Negativity Challenge

 

 

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  DAY 1

 

I have decided to challenge myself to being positive for the next 84 days. That means keeping    my thoughts positive, but especially my words. It also means no gossip.

I am doing this for many reasons, but the two that are predominant are

1. To see whether or not I can really do it and

2. To find out how it will change my life.

I will attempt to blog every day or every other day, something positive and also how I overcame or did not overcome, something negative.

Come along for the ride!

 

Everyone Has A Story…

Last Sunday there was a new person in church; a woman, alone, kind of stern looking. Well, I don’t know if she was new or not. It’s just that I had never seen her before. She was kind of plain looking with her hair pulled back in a tight ponytail and she wore a longer length skirt. She appeared to be middle aged.

She sat right in front of me and didn’t speak to anyone at all.

There is a point in the service when everyone passes on greetings to each other. It used to make me nervous when I didn’t know anyone in the church, but now it’s a time I look forward to: greeting everyone, shaking their hand or giving them a hug, a connection. So I went to shake the hand of the mysterious stranger in front of me. I wished her good morning. I smiled in welcome at her. She wished me good morning but she did not smile. At all.

Hmmm…

So I asked her if she was new to the church. She told me that she used to come but hadn’t been there in awhile.

Awhile…

Well, I’ve been here almost four years and I had never seen her before.

So I said, “I’m Christine, nice to meet you”, and she said, “I’m Bonnie.” But she still didn’t smile. I wondered if she was angry, sad or uncomfortable.

And then later on during a scripture reading I noticed her with a Kleenex. Wait- she was wiping her eyes.

I remembered a time a few years back, being in church and avoiding everyone. I remembered having my Kleenex at the ready, and wiping my eyes discretely. That was when I was newly divorced and felt quite hopeless.

I wondered what had brought Bonnie to church that morning. Maybe she decided that since it was a nice day, she would go to church, or maybe, just maybe, like me some years ago, she was searching for some comfort.

I’ve heard it said, ‘Everyone has a story, and some have two.’

You never know what’s behind a stoic gaze. It might not even be stoic; it might be sad.

So I prayed for Bonnie that morning.

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