Giving it up

No, I’m not talking about giving up food for Lent or anything like that, notwithstanding the fact that Lent has long passed. I’m talking about giving up my desire to keep Aaron here in Nova Scotia for the next couple of years. He has been so unhappy these past three months and hasn’t really given Nova Scotia a chance. He wants to go back to Quebec and live with his father. What can I say? I have tried to point out to him all the advantages of staying; that he really has a much better life here, if only he would give it a chance. He has steadfastedly  maintained a “no friend” status and  spends his evenings and weekends alone, in the basement, on the computer, communing with his friends in Quebec via Skype. Doesn’t he realize that going to live in Trois Rivieres he will still be miles away from his friends? And that he will have to make yet another adjustment to another way of life? They say that youth is wasted on the young. I concur.

I can’t say at 56 that I am ready for an “empty nest”. Since he came screaming into this world sixteen years ago, Aaron and I have been apart for only one month. Now he risks to be gone for months at a time. I am sad.

In evangelical circles they talk about giving a situation “up to God”, meaning that God will take care of things in His time and that I have no business worrying about it. And I have been worried, so much so that it’s affected every facet of my life for the past three months. Well, I’m done. Now its God’s turn.

Bring it on!

4 thoughts on “Giving it up

  1. i guess that it’s the only thing you can do now …and i don’t have the ability to take it all away , i would if i could…i heard something today that i’ve been mulling over in my mind…

    you can’t have peace until you have all the pieces

    so , giving it over to God is the only thing that you can do now…..

    you know what they say, stop telling God how big your problems are…and start telling your problems how Big Your God is….

    Aaron will learn eventually from life’s experiences …and i pray that it will make him a better man….



  2. Thanks for the comforting words. I’m still waiting to see if it actually happens.


  3. It’s a tough one. We have lots of experience with moving with kids and it is never easy. The “empty nest” syndrome is perhaps one of the biggest life adjustments we ever have to make. Happy to talk to you privately about it. Good luck to you both. Best wishes.


  4. Oh my heart hurts for you ! Honestly, you give so much, you try so hard, and it hurts so bad. The “Grant me the serenity..” prayer applies here sometimes. We know we shouldn’t depend on others for our own happiness and so, others are ultimately responsible for their own happiness, no matter how hard we try to help. I admire your courage !


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